I spent most of that class working on spider guard with white belts, and I enjoyed every minute of it. I actually felt like I had something to offer, and that I wasn't just taking up space. All of my partners were eager and grateful for my assistance, and I think I was able to teach them a few things. It was a good day of Jiu-Jitsu, which I desperately needed. Out came the sun, and dried up all the rain.Conan was wearing a new Shoyoroll gi, and before class he showed me the quote inside of it:
"Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens." -J.R.R. Tolkien
No matter how dark the road gets sometimes, I really can't imagine ever leaving the path. Once in awhile I just need to remind myself of why I started doing Jiu-Jitsu in the first place, and reconnect with what I love about it. When I focus on that, everything else seems insignificant, because the struggle is worth it.
Right now I don't have the excitement I once did, but I still have the drive. I'm ready to face whatever new challenges may lie ahead, and I won't let anything stand in my way. I've made it through darker times than this, and I'm not about to give up now. Jiu-Jitsu or die!
"Ride hard, don't look back." -J.R.R. Tolkien