I recently competed in seven different tournaments over a four month span, so I definitely put my money where my mouth is when it comes to competing, and whenever anyone asks me if they should compete I always answer with a resounding YES! However, I just don't know if I want to do the upcoming tournament. I don't know if I want to go through all the stress and emotions at this time. I think I might be a little burned out on competition, and I need a break. Even thinking about it right now makes me feel like throwing up. I just want to be lazy and not have to worry about it.
Yet, I hate the thought of missing it. I know I will be upset with myself if I don't do it. I feel like I'm fighting better now than I ever have before, and my injuries are all doing pretty well. They even lowered the entrance fee for females, so it's very affordable. There is actually a lady signed up in my division, and I've already googled her (she's a 28 year-old MMA fighter from Minnesota!). Even though I haven't made the decision, I've been anticipating it as if I have, and starting to get nervous. I want to, I don't want to, I want to, I don't want to...
that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous chokes,
Or to offer armbars against a sea of troubles.